2:36 PM
What do I say?
How do I even approach this moment with words. There are not nearly enough, nor any of value worth capturing this moment in life.
I’ve held off, a tiny bit, from attempting to bottle up the extraordinariness of this season, because it is vastly too much to fit into any one blog post. But then again, anything God does is inexplicably too amazing for the little containers of reason that we hold.
I believe, in this universe and all others, in all aspects of mind, spirit, soul, and body, we can zoom in or out infinitely. Anything we experience can be expound upon for an eternity. If you can see, you can look more. If you can enjoy, you can feel even more. If you can believe, you can always believe more. Size is only situational, as space is never ending. Now, is always. And God is in every bit of it.
Nothing is impossible.
I believe I can say I’ve received what I’ve been asking my Father for for these many months. Even what I’ve desired my entire life: Love.
He brought her back to me.
I am again one with my Bride, my Lover and best Friend!
And the wildly neat part is that it’s still only the beginning of a really, really amazing marriage. I know it. The journey to love my wife has only JUST begun. How exciting?!
I can’t really tell you how it happened; the final moments before the walls of her heart fell and we connected in fireworks and shooting stars. But I can tell you… there were fireworks and shooting stars. There were galaxies upon galaxies that came crashing to the surface of the ocean in a display of showers and sparks. There were clouds, as far as the eye could see, soaring faster than any wind could blow, over a million beautiful sunrises turning into sunsets and then immediately back to sunrises.
She kissed me. The night sky became so far away but we were never closer to it, for in those moments, we lived among the stars. A million earths passed over a hundred million years as we drifted in each other’s touch.
It’s the kind of moment where you begin to really believe that we become one flesh when we marry, as Genesis, chapter 2 talks of.
I’m here to tell the world a couple things (in no certain order), even if it is on quite a small stage:
One: The woman I married, the one God has designed to be my Bride and help-meet, is the most amazing thing in this world. She is honorable, kind and loving. And I am forever grateful to have her in my life. Being one with her is nothing short of the best experience given by God and I will not ever take it for granted, as I am committed to living worthy of being her one and only husband.
Two: God, the God who tore apart the life I had, completely decimating the awful thing I made it, forgave me, redeemed me, healed me and restored my marriage… He is AMAZING! Praise You Father for Your ever-loving mercy and kindness! I will never be quiet, never deny that You, oh Lord, have done great and amazing things for me. Thank You Lord!
Last night, at 2:30 AM, I asked my bride about moving into her place, with the kids. She (almost) agreed that it’s time for it to happen. So I put in an application for a job in her town, (at her suggestion) at the same hospital that she is employed as a housekeeper, for a cook position in their cafeteria.
By 10:30 AM, this morning, I received a call and was invited to an interview next week.
Yes, I woke up this morning, still alone. And though it is still outrageously difficult to be here, I was able to text my Bride, and she texted back. What a glorious difference from just a couple months ago.
I’m beginning to shut down the life I’ve known, here in this city… already. All the things God gave me to enjoy for a season. The jobs, the church family, the volunteer work, the apartment. I’m walking around in the rooms in my head turning the lights off and saying goodbye.
I love this city. It is vast and enjoyable. There are so many resources and opportunities, and life could really be amazing if I stayed. But I’m okay. I’m getting my family back. I’d give up a hundred lives I could live, in this city or any other, for just one life with my Bride and our five amazing daughters.
And truthfully, I was prepared to type out quite a few more entries before saying a lot of these things. But over the course of this year, nudging this boulder with my nose, just an inch at a time closer and closer to the edge of the cliff, when it tumbled, it all went.
I will continue this endeavor to tell my story. I’m going to remain faithful. But it will no longer be a blog on how I’m growing to return to my Bride and family, but one about the incredible, miracle working God we have. Who loves us with an intensity no one could fathom. And one about how the Lord, Himself, redeemed me and is sanctifying me, daily, to be the man my wife and children deserve. And need. And want.
God is always there. He fights our battles. He orchestrates every molecule and works all things out for my good. And yours, if we only turn to Him.
Now comes the real work.
I believe this is about to get very interesting.
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